BLACK FRIDAY FAILURE!!!!!

so myself and a few compadres from work went to camp outside of best buy for the ticketed items on blackfriday. As you may know, I work for Disney on ice (high school musical) well it just so happened we were in one of the best venues of the year that week and I was feeling pretty durn rich. we got there tenth in line only to learn of the blue law in east rutherford... or whatever county we were in that stated that no commercial business not having to do with necessities essential to life may open before seven am... call for work was about seven am, every other best buy in the country opened at five am but no, not the one best buy we could get to... we missed black friday, but that sunday I went and bought a great toshiba laptop and sold my own for three hundred dollars... so I spent four hundred, this thing is four times as powerful!!

and I have since enhanced it by cutting open a kush ball with googly eyes and stretching it over the cover... so now my laptop is all squishy and covered in elastic pink stretchy hairs!!!! and giant eyeballs!!

I should post a picture.

well/// you know what that means right? me more active on DA YAY YAY!!

Heyah, my name is Aut.

Nice to meet'cha

08:24 AM - A nice guy

Psychological introspective.

The core of it is an intrinsic inability to act on negative impulses through any medium involving direct confrontation. Anger for offending acts that have been committed by persons whom I have a vested interest are calculated against a myriad of scenarios involving direct psychological repercussions, be they positive or negative. The innate recourse of action is preset by my anti societal (though somewhat misplaced) fears brought about by feelings of inadequacy which in turn led to a lack of acceptance in my peer groups throughout the winding course of my instable home life as a developing adolescent.
That aforementioned and accursed recourse is to instinctively disregard the urgencies and delineative emotional counter-reaction to whatever offense may have been committed, solely for the sake of preserving the state of interpersonal involvement associated with the offender.

Now the question is at what point should this defensive technique be overruled for the sake of ones own homeostasis. (involving psychological,cognitive, and sympathetic qualities most particularly)

The frame of your psychology is built upon the experiences and directives to which you are exposed (and personally favor) throughout your mental development from birth. Essentially, if I were to contradict the precepts set forth by myself at a younger age, I can only rationally expect (and this is purely conjecture do to the fact that I have never been in a position strenuous enough to force such a breach) that at such a juncture there would be a regrettable and irreversible loss of stasis in the emotional recesses of my mind.

While I have established a strong framework on which to build my exterior persona, the fact remains that the foundation of said frame is mired into an inadequate stage.

I think about this every day, in an attempt to commit psycho surgery on myself, to become more of a person separate from the fearful child that represents my perspective on life and those involved with me. My frame.

What I'm getting at is there is someone that any other man would hate in my position, instead I support and want well for. This is a recurring phenomenon that has lead to severe abuse of my psyche in isolated cases.

... I guess that I should give up for now. Until my psycho surgery is complete and I have a more self-oriented perspective on life.
Obviously, Cinderella will never want to be saved for more than two weeks, no matter how I try. I think this is safe to say without fear of reprisal due to the limited capacity of the subject to whom I refer.

Why is it that a girl can tell you that you're perfect and unlike any other guy, cling to you hopelessly for a brief period, and then disconnect like a lamprey who's had enough to eat and then settle back to what they so fervently knew before was damaging and wrong for them? Perhaps a better question may be, why do I try?

I had an ant farm once, those little bastards didn't grow shit.

Heyah, my name is Aut.

Nice to meet'cha

I just submitted some eyes I drew and within ten seconds I had an additional 100 pageviews and 27 comments!! wow.

that feels nice!! must go submit more!!

I picked up Ice Sculpting recently, last night I made a cube, this morning I made twelve, I was prolific.

Heyah, my name is Aut.

Nice to meet'cha

Going back on tour with Disney on ice sunday!!^^ yay!

and get this. This year I'm taking my uber schmexy lady on tour with me so I won't be a lonely guy all year again><

Everyone form a circle and pray that drama won't make me rue the day cuz if anything goes wrong.

(fingeer slides across throat) There will be no escaping the drama for me. Cuz we'll be working/partying/ and staying in the same hotel together *crosses fingers*

oh and I'll be on-line a lot more.

in other news, did you know the term spam was coined from a monte python sketch?

I picked up Ice Sculpting recently, last night I made a cube, this morning I made twelve, I was prolific.

Heyah, my name is Aut.

Nice to meet'cha

Sorry folks, I'ma be AWOL fer a bit till I get internet at my new place, just want ya ta know Ill miss ya's *tear*

I picked up Ice Sculpting recently, last night I made a cube, this morning I made twelve, I was prolific.